I Never Thought
June 30, 2009

All the times you told me you wish you could be just like me
You think I have so much fun
Well you don't know me
I'm always screaming out
Why can't you just see me reaching out?
The way you're ignoring me has gotten to be too much now.

I can't believe this is wasted
I never thought you were jaded
I'm holding on so tightly
My knuckles are so white
I'm hurt that you would even consider it
I don't know if I believe it.

You used to be so innocent
And now you ignore the cries and the stress
It's not even the worst thing you do
I can't even say
And I hope one day you get it
Thrown back in your face and it causes a mess
Then you can see how this has been for me and how I've
Not always survived
I'm not the same way and it's thanks to you.

I can't believe this is wasted
I never thought you were jaded
I'm holding on so tightly
My knuckles are so white
I'm hurt that you would even consider it
I don't know if I believe it.

What a lie.

I can't believe this is wasted
I never thought you were jaded
I'm holding on so tightly
My knuckles are so white
I'm hurt that you would even consider it
I don't know if I believe it.

I want this to end
You'll never get it
Stop lying and denying
I know what you're still hiding
And even though I still know you, there's something different too.