Tried To
December 12, 2010

I hope you didn't go and set me up
Cos you know I can get real good revenge
Why don't you ever think about the things you say and do
One time it's going to get thrown right back at you
I tried to save it every single way I could
I thought of lying through my teeth just to help you out
I hope you don't think I just did this for fun
If you had checked it and you could've been number one.

I want you to know that I didn't do this to help me
Something went wrong and I needed help fast
I don't tell on things at all
But this time I didn't have a chance at all.

I hope you can forgive me that it came to this
A never ending sick feeling which I'll never miss
I wouldn't want you on my bad side, it's crossed my mind
I've prayed for it to be okay a thousand times
A lack of communication is what it came down to
A fear of rushing and constantly leaving soon
I feel pushed and dragged and torn ever way
I hope that tomorrow this'll all be okay.

I want you to know that I didn't do this to help me
Something went wrong and I needed help fast
I don't tell on things at all
But this time I didn't have a chance at all.

All the words could never make me feel better
All the feelings I felt you'll never know.

I want you to know that I didn't do this to help me
Something went wrong and I needed help fast
I don't tell on things at all
But this time I didn't have a chance at all.

Eyes Like the Ocean
December 7, 2010

His eyes were so deep like the ocean and sea
The way he looks at me
As if it was something he'd never seen before
While looking at the stars
The colour of his hair, the look in his eyes
The clothes he wore
Like in England he wasn't aware.

Drop everything now, meet me at the dusk of night
Underneath the stars standing on a pier is right
Cos I fell in love with you
The way you hold me close lets me know
If things were different we'd be together now
Because I'm back on that pier thinking of you under the stars.

The softness of his voice
With it he could sing the perfect melody
I heard his name, but I know it's not right
Willy I think about you day and night
I miss looking into your eyes, I wonder if you miss mine
I love you
I have faith that one day you'll see me and our worlds will collide.

Drop everything now, meet me at the dusk of night
Underneath the stars standing on a pier is right
Cos I fell in love with you
The way you hold me close lets me know
If things were different we'd be together now
Because I'm back on that pier thinking of you under the stars.

I go back to that night when we were there
And watch a love bloom
I can feel you breathe against my skin
And it still drives me wild
If I could see you again
I couldn't restrain myself
I'm captivated by everything you are and I long to be with you.

Drop everything now, meet me at the dusk of night
Underneath the stars standing on a pier is right
Cos I fell in love with you
The way you hold me close lets me know
If things were different we'd be together now
Because I'm back on that pier thinking of you under the stars.

Dear Willy
December 7, 2010

I feel alone
I know you had to go and so did I
But I'll never forget your voice
The way you told me everything happens for a reason
I sit staring at the stars
Wondering if the waves crashing around me know something
And I know one day I'll see you again, but will you be free of her.

This is supposed to be a letter to you
But instead it has a melody.

Oh I think of you everyday and how I still picture every word you said
Come to me, I need you right now, I need to feel the ocean breeze again.

I hear songs on the radio and I know that you're not happy where you are
So come play on the beach with me
We can be more free then you'll ever know.

Love this strong can last every storm
And I know I can hear it in your voice.


Oh I think of you everyday and how I still picture every word you said
Come to me, I need you right now, I need to feel the ocean breeze again.

I'm too scared to say it any other way and I'm scared you wont ever hear it
Here's the silence while I wait for your answer
Shaking hands this was so daring.

The first time you hear it I hope you understand
I'm so lonely here
Without you by my side
We are so much alike
I think you're my soul mate anyhow.


Oh I think of you everyday and how I still picture every word you said
Come to me, I need you right now, I need to feel the ocean breeze again.

Always Be There
December 5, 2010

I wish you were near me
I need you here
I need you as a rock beside me
So when waves crash I don't drown.

The stories you tell me
Make me feel strong
I'm filled with emotions and I need you all the time.

I can feel you here with me
Through the dark I can see you
I can feel you here with me
It's like I already know you.

I know it's not right
To feel this way
All I know is you help me until the end.

I can feel you here with me
Through the dark I can see you
I can feel you here with me
It's like I already know you.

I wish I could help you too
In your darkest days
And whenever you need me, I'll always be there.

I can feel you here with me
Through the dark I can see you
I can feel you here with me
It's like I already know you.

Slip Away
December 5, 2010

Long ago when days were greener
And we didn't know it all
All of our footsteps were left in the sand
You meant the world to me
You were everything
Until you destroyed it
And blew up like a mine.

Dreams will always slip away
You'll have to chase them one day.

I eventually forgave you
Painted all new lines
I put the puzzle back together
And didn't miss a piece this time.

We've been through so much
Lacking nothing but lust and dreams
Dust collects on everything
While winds blow sand
We don't understand.

I really thought I knew you
But you left again
It was differently
And now I know.

Dreams will always slip away
You'll have to chase them one day.

Be Alright
November 29, 2010

Everything
Will work out just fine
Close your eyes
It'll all be alright
Hold your head up high and break away from
What they think of you
And don't drown in their expectations of you.

All dried up
Is what you think of your life
It's not simple now
You cry in doubt
Don't hang your head in shame
It's not true
Look up and I'll reassure you
I love you.

Don't cry
Please don't cry
Don't wonder why
Please don't wonder why.

Incomplete
November 23, 2010

Starring at the walls surrounding me
Bring back too many memories
And ghosts I thought I had forgotten through the years
Even with time passing I can recall.

All the last things we did
All the conversations that have come to pass
Feelings of happy and sad times are swirling through the air.

Separate people don't know where to start
We were once together now we were collecting in the dust
Yelling matches seem so serene
Incomplete fantasies.

Belongings strewn around everywhere
Shadows in the darkness feel the glare
Trying to forgot it all, it's broken my heart.

Separate people don't know where to start
We were once together now we were collecting in the dust
Yelling matches seem so serene
Incomplete fantasies.

Today
November 20, 2010

Your big smile and your glowing eyes
Light up brightly like the sunrise
Your personality keeps shining through
You'll never know how much I cherish you
Today.

Your talent is blinding
Like the brightest star at night
Whisper words to me
They're never the same
You sing about dolphins, love and friends
Where your life began
But not how it ends.

And saving the world by singing to us
With your love and more
You cherish it all so much
How are you so strong to live like this
I never imagined anything like this.

You saved the world
One chord at a time
Leaving it all by 1968
For new beginnings and never ending hope
The sun and stars shine different over here
You gave up everything and all your glory
To start off a brand new story
You showed the world how it could be done
We all look up to you with the same intentions.

And saving the world by singing to us
With your love and more
You cherish it all so much
How are you so strong to live like this
I never imagined anything like this.

Seeing how it should be done
Seeing someone so brave
There's nothing too strange for you
Nothing can make you weak
You exude your confidence like the brightest star
And we should all learn from you.

The story wont end
It'll continue the rest of the way
Your a man of glory
And that'll never change
You are an amazing honour, and the honour's all mine.

We’ll Never Know the Truth
Nov 11, 2010

All the trouble you’ve been through
You’re so strong and wise
You know just what to say
To make everything seem okay.

I keep thinking back to the young days
When everything seemed so much more strange
Wasn’t it better
When everyone would call your name
Couldn’t you take it anymore
When you gave it all up
I would have believed in you.

All the days spent by the beach
Spending days with who your friends were
Or were they not then
We’ll never know the truth.

Manufactured has to be hard
But its not the end of the world
I’m so happy you accept that now
I wish you had seen it sooner then.

The music was so great
If you had kept on going
All of the time you spent
Doing all those other things
You were so beautiful
Why did it all slip away from you.

All the days spent by the beach
Spending days with who your friends were
Or were they not then
We’ll never know the truth
Could it have been any different
If the cards were dealt a different way
Never regret anything
It should all stay the same.

Time ticks slowly away
But it’s going to bring a new day
New adventures in the next year
All the things exciting
Fireworks light up the night sky
It’s okay to just be you.

All the days spent by the beach
Spending days with who your friends were
Or were they not then
We’ll never know the truth
Could it have been any different
If the cards were dealt a different way
Never regret anything
It should all stay the same.

Happy To Hear You
Nov 11 2010

Music lightens up our lives
Makes us real and feel alright
It lights up our lives every day.
The words you write surrounded me
Making me question everything
I have ever known about life.
All I want you to know is
That I was happy to hear you.

Your eyes bright they shine a lot
Your voice is clear like ocean sky
Tenderness across the waves.
Songs about real things
Touching everyone along the way
Like snow at Christmastime.
All I want you to know is
That I was happy to hear you.

You are so special, listen to your voice
It rings out across the universe
Helping parents teach their children
All I want you to know is
That we’re all happy to hear you.

Showing people how to live
Leaving what you love to be loved
California is sunny all the time.
Pictures say a thousand words
I wish that were more
You are beautiful to look at all day.
All I want you to know is
That I was so happy to know you.

You are so special, listen to your voice
It rings out across the universe
Helping parents their children
All I want you to know is
That we’re all happy know you.

This isn’t how the story began
It’s different from what I knew then
I hated by association, I still hang my head in shame.
We all grow up to be different
By everything we listen to
All I want you to know is
That I was happy to learn from you.

You are so special, listen to your voice
It rings out across the universe
Helping parents teach their children
All I want you to know is
That we’re all happy to learn from you.

But For Now
October 22, 2010

I still remember that first time
It wasn't too cold outside
We were just so excited
It was the best night
I remember it clearly
When the screaming came
We looked at each other and something changed
The night it felt so fun
It went by way too fast
And now the buildings gone
But the memory remains.

All the memories are clear to me
Even if you can't remember them the same
I know we'll have some more one day
But for now it has to change.

I still remember those moments
When we'd dance outisde
It was the summer time and no one was around
I remember all the things we'd try
It was our summer of 1966
And we figured it all out
And everyone said friends cant last
Past high school
But everything can work the right way if you want it to
I should know.

All the memories are clear to me
Even if you can't remember them the same
I know we'll have some more one day
But for now it has to change.

I fought dragons with you
Singing at the top of our lungs
Writing our lives away.

We'll stop right here
I;m not sure how it ends
But I'll make a promise
If you promise me this
Time will keep going
More memories to come
One day... wait, it'll never go away
Don't ever leave this place
Don't ever say goodbye

All the memories are clear to me
Even if you can't remember them the same
I know we'll have some more one day
But for now it has to change
Long live all the ice cream we ate
And all the progress that was gained
And when the dark cloud went away
It's always remembered.

Dark Outside Tonight
October 22, 2010

The look on your face takes me back to that last day
Walking side by side
Pouring rain is alright
We looked back and forth between each other
We knew we never could discover
But you'd think you had run away.

Why did you do that to me?
Why did you scare me so late at night?

It's dark outside tonight and the shadows scare me in fright
I guess you're not who I thought you were
Look in the mirror at yourself
What reflection stares back at you?
Is it who you really are or the one you made up just to show me?
What are you doing to yourself an how did you become so scary?

You walked away with no words to say
But that's not much like you
I hope you don't think thats okay
You can't tell me its how it should be
How is that any fair?
I'm so frustrated.

Why did you do that to me?
Why did you scare me so late at night?

It's dark outside tonight and the shadows scare me in fright
I guess you're not who I thought you were
Look in the mirror at yourself
What reflection stares back at you?
Is it who you really are or the one you made up just to show me?
What are you doing to yourself an how did you become so scary?

I should go
You're so mean
I'm alone
And you have no clue.

It's dark outside tonight and the shadows scare me in fright
I guess you're not who I thought you were
Look in the mirror at yourself
What reflection stares back at you?
Is it who you really are or the one you made up just to show me?
What are you doing to yourself an how did you become so scary?

Strange & Lonely All the Time
October 22, 2010

Think of December, it'll keep me going
I miss you, I think its worth knowing
I know theres nothing I can do
So I think of the days that pass by
I try my best not to break down and cry
So I look up at the bright blue sky.

I promised to myself I wouldn't think about it at all
And I know that only in time

I will lose everything, inside if you're wondering
But I'll try not to let it show on the outside
And I feel strange and lonely all the time
The summer sun, the winter snow, the rain in spring or the falling leaves wont let me show what I really mean
And I feel strange and lonely all the time.

The time goes fast but the seconds tick slowly
The beats strong but the rhythms weak
And I know that in my mind its not problem at all
Drawing on a driveway with chalk all the time
Writing down everything we felt at the time
If only everything was that easy again.

And then reality hit us like a ton of ice and everything spun out of line
I'll give you all my love now if somehow we could stop time.

I will lose everything, inside if you're wondering
But I'll try not to let it show on the outside
And I feel strange and lonely all the time
The summer sun, the winter snow, the rain in spring or the falling leaves wont let me show what I really mean
And I feel strange and lonely all the time.

I miss your talks late at night
Your hyperness
Your way to make everyone smile
You light up the darkest room in sight on a dark night.

Maybe I'm unrealistic
Or maybe just going ballistic
But I know you're where you're meant to be
Even though I know how much I cry at night
I can't call you back this time.

I will lose everything, inside if you're wondering
But I'll try not to let it show on the outside
And I feel strange and lonely all the time
The summer sun, the winter snow, the rain in spring or the falling leaves wont let me show what I really mean
And I feel strange and lonely all the time.

Everything Thrown At Me
October 8, 2010

When I was little I'd sit in the grass and have no worries
As I grew older I knew I'd have to forget all this
Now I know better and I try to relax and calm myself
I can remember the day I broke and where it lead.

Now I know how to enjoy
Everything thrown at me.

One day I cursed at myself and it didn't change a thing
I looked in the mirror and I hopped it wouldn't last
My mind's always been like this and told me things that weren't true
I hope it changes one day because it's something I can't control like this.

Now I know how to enjoy
Everything thrown at me.

I'm not at all what I appear to be
And I know that's cliche
But what you know and I know are different
I hope you can help me come clean.

Now I know how to enjoy
Everything thrown at me.

Creativity
September 7, 2010

So often spoke out of turn
I'm not conforming
To turn and walk away is a struggle once more
I hope with all the deepest hopes it will work out
Concerned I'm not, but I don't need the stress I'm sure.

Don't point your finger at me and tell me it's all my fault
Your as much to blame for not giving me creativity
But I can't go on anymore
I hope this will settle the score.

As time goes by it wont change me
There needs to be something said by someone other then me
Your foolish ways wont fool me any longer
I'm more free then you'll ever know.

Don't point your finger at me and tell me it's all my fault
Your as much to blame for not giving me creativity
But I can't go on anymore
I hope this will settle the score.

It Never Was
September 7, 2010

I'm searching
You're searching to tell me it's not right
I felt low
You pushed me and it all aside.

You once told me it's not meant to be
You gave me options and told me to see.

It can't be this way
I'll lose it all today
The feelings not right
It never was.

If you'd stop pushing
I'd start giving
Can't you see my side?

Can't you see that
It's all off track
It's all deep inside.

You told me it'd be okay
I didn't believe you yesterday
And not today.

It can't be this way
I'll lose it all today
The feelings not right
It never was.

I know there's no such thing as regrets
But I feel thrown to the side
Can it be worked out anyways?

It can't be this way
I'll lose it all today
The feelings not right
It never was.

Hope You Fall
June 29, 2010

It's not crazy not to realize
The hurt and pain that's inside
I thought you'd only see in time
It's crazy, crazy
I'd do anything for you
I guess it's wrong of me to try
So why don't you tell me
How it's all supposed to be
You can't just keep jerking me
Around it's crazy
One day you'll see that
I'm stronger then you.

If this was the last time
I'd ever talk
I'd use it to walk right up to you
And tell you what's really on my mind
I wouldn't spare anything thing time
I'd tell you where to go, and hope you fall.

I don't know what's with your attitude
Or why you think that you're so cool
I think you need to be checked into reality
I'm about to let everyone know the way you really are.

If this was the last time
I'd ever talk
I'd use it to walk right up to you
And tell you what's really on my mind
I wouldn't spare anything thing time
I'd tell you where to go, and hope you fall.

There's one thing I thought you ought to know
And it's from the bottom of my soul
I think you should let everyone know
That you are a poser of who you should be.

If this was the last time
I'd ever talk
I'd use it to walk right up to you
And tell you what's really on my mind
I wouldn't spare anything thing time
I'd tell you where to go, and hope you fall.

I Don't Know Why
June 17, 2010

The ocean takes you away
But I'll still last another day
Your searching for who you are
But all you did was leave me scarred
I close my eyes and you're not here
I open them and you don't reappear
Everything is gone out the door
But I still feel lost.

I only wish the best for you
Even though I know you don't need it
I can't help but think what went wrong
And why you chased it
I don't know why, I sit here and cry
Please forgive me my friend.

You choose to go to your right
And leave the middle behind
I could always see it in your eyes
That you'd leave for a second time
I will miss you if the truth be told
Or how the future will be
But hopefully we'll see each other again.

I only wish the best for you
Even though I know you don't need it
I can't help but think what went wrong
And why you chased it
I don't know why, I sit here and cry
Please forgive me my friend.

We'll Be Fine
June 17, 2010

This city is dark and looks so lonely at night
Especially when we're not laughing side by side
What's so different about tonight
I'll tell you if you promise me
Why are you leaving me still?
Why didn't I see it in the crystal ball
I don't get why you always do this to me
You take it all away but I'm not free
I'm not free.

I just want to say
Why'd you do this to me today
Why is it always your plan
You keep on hurting me
What's on your mind
Did you want me to say stay
What's left behind
It's all memories.

You can't seem to ignore me
Your friends are crazy not like me
You can say it's 'cos I'm not like them
I'd doubt it even then
I'll be okay.

I just want to say
Why'd you do this to me today
Why is it always your plan
You keep on hurting me
What's on your mind
Did you want me to say stay
What's left behind
It's all memories.

I wont get to watch you leave
You're out of my sight
I'll probably cry
I'm not feeling alright
But I know we'll be fine.

I just want to say
Why'd you do this to me today
Why is it always your plan
You keep on hurting me
What's on your mind
Did you want me to say stay
What's left behind
It's all memories.

Fly Away
June 1, 2010

Off the hook is where you want to be
Seeing it all makes you pace
And now you're even free
You should be happy for your space
Something must remind you
Of something old not new
Of someone you once were
Is that so bizarre, you couldn't even tell.

I used to look up to you
But now that's gone again
I can't even imagine
How that'll end
Please don't pretend
That you weren't out at least to hurt me
I can't even see
You'll be that complete.

Flying like a bird
Just fly away
And please don't disturb
When you think its okay
You'll never be heard by
At the end of the day.

The glances and the lies have come undone
Now you're not naive
But you're inapt to beleive
That I can't see through your mind
Like the sands of time
I can't begin to say
That it's even okay.

Flying like a bird
Just fly away
And please don't disturb
When you think its okay
You'll never be heard by
At the end of the day.

Out East
May 5, 2010

You know I thought this through
I really don't want to lose you
My words can't save me this time
Everything's laid clearly in a line.

Why do you feel the need to go
Out east always gets so cold
Thinking back on yesterdays
It all seems magic, I can recall.

Having so much fun s a child
Now all I have are memories
I can't sleep at night I'm scared
I lost you once and couldn't breathe.

Summertime has never looked so right
Careless fun was easy
Growing up is sad
You're always leaving me.

I feel all alone
This all seems sad until you know.

I'm Holding On
April 8, 2010

I look at you
It's out of my control
You're so beautiful
I can't let the thought go
I want to know you
Hear you say my name
But I want to hold you
And never let you go.

I'm holding onto something I can't have
I'm not afraid
If only I could see you
Hear your voice
And know I'm right
It's not getting any clearer
It's hazy out
It's just not right
And if you want to see me
Call me closer.

It's all in my head
It could never happen
I can feel the roughness
From your guitar hands
You'd never love me
Rock 'n' rolls not like that
Just write songs about me
I'll be the one that stands out.

I'm holding onto something I can't have
I'm not afraid
If only I could see you
Hear your voice
And know I'm right
It's not getting any clearer
It's hazy out
It's just not right
And if you want to see me
Call me closer.

Many dreams that I have dreamed
Many faces I have seen
Many times I've turned to you
I can't believe that I am here
Questioning whats in my mind
Asking why I need you more.

I'm holding onto something I can't have
I'm not afraid
If only I could see you
Hear your voice
And know I'm right
It's not getting any clearer
It's hazy out
It's just not right
And if you want to see me
Call me closer.

For a Reason
April 8, 2010

I wonder what you said to her that day
Making her cry and making her turn away
She turned to me and I couldn't handle it
I broke down and nearly had a fit
I wonder what you're saying now
Is the new girl a pawn in your game
Do you treat her with the same disrespect
Never letting her answer and making a mess.

Don't take back everything you said
You said it all for a reason
Don't be sad now, it's all done
Maybe you should have thought it over before you took a run
I can't believe you ever saw it simply
Was the outcome ever clear to you
Don't take back everything you said
It would all still leave a scar.

Time's passing now and look what's happened
We're all moving on and you're still on the side
Look me in the eye and tell me I'm okay
I'll prove to you I'm not in any way
Scream out loud if you're frustrated
Scared on the inside, afraid to start
To forgive is easy to do
But the thoughts still there how do I trust you.

Don't take back everything you said
You said it all for a reason
Don't be sad now, it's all done
Maybe you should have thought it over before you took a run
I can't believe you ever saw it simply
Was the outcome ever clear to you
Don't take back everything you said
It would all still leave a scar.

Prove Me Wrong
April 6, 2010

It's impossible not to feel hollow
When something happens to you just like this
You turn to people all around you
They tell you it must all be in your head
I need some positive attention
I need a way to clear the dust in my head
I've got no room for misconceptions
I need somewhere to rest my head.

I know by looking at you
It makes no sense to doubt you
until you prove me wrong like they did
But if you listen slowly
And absorb the whole story
I know that everything will come true.

I feel the longer that I've know you
You're sinking into a pattern with them
I've told you always that I'd need you
But I guess I can make it on my own instead
I can see it in your eyes
When you stare vacantly at me
I guess it's not a surprise
That you're not who I thought you would be.

I know by looking at you
It makes no sense to doubt you
until you prove me wrong like they did
But if you listen slowly
And absorb the whole story
I know that everything will come true.

And I can see it late at night
The way you don't answer me's not right
You're driving me out of my mind
I thought I had somewhere to hide
Or worse I thought I could confide
I thought maybe you'd hold me tight
And tell me everything's alright.

I know by looking at you
It makes no sense to doubt you
until you prove me wrong like they did
But if you listen slowly
And absorb the whole story
I know that everything will come true.

Don't Get It Wrong
March 24, 2010

After all these years
I don't understand
You were strong together
Through all the harm.

Don't get it wrong
Just be strong
You're wrong.

Don't aim for the punches
If you back away
You don't have any clever tactics
You threw it all away.

Don't get it wrong
Just be strong
You're wrong
Just play along
And keep calm
No harm.

I can't get past this ordeal
Please say this isn't real
Just stop and listen to the words.

Your vulgar attitude
Isn't that cool
In the middle of nowhere
Is where you belong.


Don't get it wrong
Just be strong
You're wrong
Just play along
And keep calm
No harm.

Don't Know Where To Go
March 24, 2010

I don't know what I'm doing here
All I want to do is cry
It's an average day
I can't help but dream away.

Looking at a shooting star
I wish I could do it right
And have lots of fun
I miss being adrift.

The times going way too slow
I don't know where to go
Show me the way.

Close my eyes and drift away
Losing track of every day
You have too much fun
I wish you'd pass some my way.


The times going way too slow
I don't know where to go
Show me the way.

I Must Be Crazy
March 23, 2010

It was such a surprise
When you were looking at me
I couldn't even tell you
With those big blue eyes
To see you look my way
And me be okay
I was so surprised.

I must be crazy
It wasn't easy.

It was so much fun
To hear the music that played
All around us
When you talked to me
Words came easily
I was shocked to see
That you understood exactly.

I must be crazy
It wasn't easy.

Easy to love you
Easy to understand
Why I can't be with you always
Talk to me slowly
So I can understand
I hope you learn my name
Eventually on a Monday.

I must be crazy
It wasn't easy.

I wont hesitate
To be near you now
That I know how the feelings rush.

I must be crazy
It wasn't easy.

Will You Remember
March 23, 2010

I could tell
This isn't new
I fought and hid
Somehow it got through
It wasn't a surprise
It hurt deep down inside
It doesn't show.

All the seasons changing
Its not the same
Will you remember me
And my name.

I conquered my fear
I talked to you
It was so crazy
I was so steady
You took me by surprise
You looked at
Right into my eyes
And I knew.

All the seasons changing
Its not the same
Will you remember me
And my name.

I don't know a word of this
But I'm clear on what I heard
I know it's safe
It's clear
To think it ever happened.

All the seasons changing
Its not the same
Will you remember me
And my name.

Taken Lightly
March 23, 2010

I was always left alone
You were so misplaced
I know that its how it started
I was laughed at
You rescued me
I still cry about it.

This is not something
That should be taken lightly
I will never forget this again.

Something tore us apart
A tidal wave crashed in
I can't believe you didn't try to stop it
The fear is locked inside
Screaming to get out
I can't believe you denied it.

This is not something
That should be taken lightly
I will never forget this again.

Look at the times
I don't rewind
They can't be taken back
I'm just fine
Its coming off hard.

This is not something
That should be taken lightly
I will never forget this again.

Burden I Have
March 23, 2010

One day, I hope you'll see this
And realize that I could have needed you
I needed your help when I was down
And beat up, and weak, and laying on the ground.

These days don't stop
They just get worse and I could really use someone
To help when I'm like this
The sky is dark and so are my thoughts
Please help to save me from this.

This is the burden I have and it all lays with me
And wont go away
These tears I cry at night are scary
Can you hear me now?

I keep reaching out and no ones there
Why isn't anyone watching or listening
They probably don't even care
I don't know why, but I can't help it
My mind keeps playing all these horrible tricks
I go to sleep scared and wake up alone
Will anyone save me from this horrible dream.

This is the burden I have and it all lays with me
And wont go away
These tears I cry at night are scary
Can you hear me now?

This Disaster
March 15, 2010

You said that getting older would be fun and I always argued
You said that I would never notice all the changes happening
You said we'd be better if we didn't talk ever again.

But it seems you were wrong
And I knew
It wouldn't last
All along
This disaster was waiting to happen.

They said nothing lasts this long and it will fall apart
They said this would be a big catastrophe and someone would get hurt
They said it would be me because I was weaker then.

But it seems
They were wrong
And I knew
It wouldn't last
All along
This disaster was waiting to happen.

I think this whole thing could blow up and hurt you
I think you don't know what you're doing, you just hurt
I think that this is getting very old, leave it alone.

But it seems you were wrong
And I knew
It wouldn't last
All along
This disaster was waiting to happen.

I thought I knew the likes of you and everything you put me through
To hell and back
I cried some too
Promising not to remember you
Now this time it's true
I'm forgetting you.

Save Me Now
February 18, 2009

I'll tell you a story but I'm not sure that you'd listen anyway
Sometimes I think there's something else that has captured you
Tell me why can't you see
You're still hurting me, hurting me.

I feel all alone
Even in crowded rooms
Look what you did to me I can't take it any longer
Maybe if you'd ask
I'd tell you the truth
But my heart breaks everyday and I'm screamin' out
It's almost too late for you to save me now.

If this were me I would have done this so differently
I would have talked and tried to work it out
But you were never good with words
But you should have taken a chance
It's so stupid what you put me through
You've made it hard for me.

I feel all alone
Even in crowded rooms
Look what you did to me I can't take it any longer
Maybe if you'd ask
I'd tell you the truth
But my heart breaks everyday and I'm screamin' out
It's almost too late for you to save me now.

Sometimes I think it should change
Look in the mirror, can't you see?
You're not the same person you used to be.

I feel alone
Even in crowded rooms
But I'm better then you
I'm going to change this by myself
My heart wont beat alone
Anymore for you
You were stupid and now
You can't turn around
It's too late for you to save me now.

You & Me
April 12, 2009

I can't figure out why I'm so scared
To tell you about all the things I've said
To my friends about you, it's not that easy
When I look into your eyes
I'm hypnotized
They take me to another place I really like
When I dream at night I can see you.

I can't get you off of my mind
I could write it out a hundred million times
But even then I couldn't say what I've been thinking for a long time.

I think that we could be good together
Taking on the world forever
So please tell me
You belong with me.

Thinking about you in your jeans
I kinda like it and its how it will be
I like your shoes and the ties you wear
Well maybe I'm crazy
When I talk to you I get carried away
I always say things I would never say
I'm surprised this hasn't slipped out of my mouth
I bet you really would have liked that.

I can't get you off of my mind
I could write it out a hundred million times
But even then I couldn't say what I've been thinking for a long time.

I think that we could be good together
Taking on the world forever
So please tell me
You belong with me
Hoping that I've sparked a light
Knowing this will help get me through the night
And help make it all right.

I remember the way you first said my name
And when I talked to you on the coldest day
And how you said it yesterday and how it's all changed
Now it all seems real to me.

I think that we could be good together
Taking on the world forever
So please tell me
You belong with me
Hoping that I've sparked a light
Knowing this will help get me through the night
And help make it all right.

Why
May 6, 2009

I opened up
I showed you what
I should be like but I'm not
I'm way too shy
Too scared inside
To take a chance to open myself up to you
But...

I know the feelings mutual
I know that I want you
Please just come out with me tonight
I don't care what we do
As long as I'm just near you
I always, want to have you around
Here's to the song that plays when you're looking at me
The way you looked into my eyes
Then time starts again and I'm asking you why.

I don't want a hook up
Or a frenchie kiss but
Thats not who I am
I just want to hold you and tell you
Girlfriends and boyfriends okay.

I know the feelings mutual
I know that I want you
Please just come out with me tonight
I don't care what we do
As long as I'm just near you
I always, want to have you around
Here's to the song that plays when you're looking at me
The way you looked into my eyes
Then time starts again and I'm asking you why.

Why is your music keeping you away from me?
Even though I would come second to it
I'd make the sacrifice.

I know the feelings mutual
I know that I want you
Please just come out with me tonight
I don't care what we do
As long as I'm just near you
I always, want to have you around
Here's to the song that plays when you're looking at me
The way you looked into my eyes
Then time starts again and I'm asking you why.

I Have To Tell You
May 6, 2009

I'm thinking every night
About how I'm going to get you
Make you realize that I'm worth your time
You looked into my eyes
And I knew you were happy
And everything was right
I've asked you now twice
If you wanted to hang out
Want to spend some time
hanging out with me
I waited for your reply
But you're busy with your band
But I'll keep trying more.

Because I just can't let you go
when I know you don't even have free time for yourself
And I know you're just not saying that to push me away.

And every song I hear reminds me of you
Sometimes I think about just kissing you
And I know one day
I have to tell you.

Give me some more time
To pull myself together
Hope you see the signs
That I'm really trying here
Why don't you tell me why you don't hear my voice screaming for you
Or maybe you do
Maybe you're scared
And that's the reason
You act like this
But let me tell you
I'm scared to but I just can't resist.

Because I just can't let you go
when I know you don't even have free time for yourself
And I know you're just not saying that to push me away.

And every song I hear reminds me of you
Sometimes I think about just kissing you
And I know one day
I have to tell you.

I Knew In Time
May 30, 2009

All the times I thought of you and me
I can almost see the picture perfectly clear
And then you stab me in the back and it hurts the most.

It's a couple years alter and I'm so sad
You've replaced me with others
They're not like me at all
You apologized to me, I dreamed of this day
I'm finally happy again.

I knew in time
That everything would be okay
History
Will never repeat itself
I'm so patient
For dealing with you
I know you're there.

Just when things were getting better you moved away
Everything took a tumble
I held on tight
Never giving up on what I knew
I missed you.

And now you're back and everything's changed
But nothing's different
You still act the same
I really miss you now, but you've caused so much pain
It's not enough.

I knew in time
That everything would be okay
History
Will never repeat itself
I'm so patient
For dealing with you
I know you're there.

Why am I still waiting here?
After all these years?

I knew in time
That everything would be okay
History
Will never repeat itself
I'm so patient
For dealing with you
I know you're there.

Make Me Crazy
June 30, 2009

I cross the floor, stare at the wall again
I don't know why you're like this with me
What's wrong with me?
Tell me pretty please
'Cos I can't find out this by myself now
And you make me feel so good even when it hurts me
You're always hurting me.

You make me crazy
So paranoid
You make me angry when there's nothing to be angry about
Tell me you're leaving
You're done with me now.

You made me see green, red and black
My eyes are sore, I can't do this anymore
I hate myself from you
Just tell me what to do
I know I wont be able to stop myself now
I wish I could admit
But it'll never quit
I don't want it to stop.

You make me crazy
So paranoid
You make me angry when there's nothing to be angry about
Tell me you're leaving
You're done with me now.

You don't know how it hurts
You just assume the worst
Laughing at me constantly
Even like you hate me
Why do I keep you?

You make me crazy
So paranoid
You make me angry when there's nothing to be angry about
Tell me you're leaving
You're done with me now.

I Never Thought
June 30, 2009

All the times you told me you wish you could be just like me
You think I have so much fun
Well you don't know me
I'm always screaming out
Why can't you just see me reaching out?
The way you're ignoring me has gotten to be too much now.

I can't believe this is wasted
I never thought you were jaded
I'm holding on so tightly
My knuckles are so white
I'm hurt that you would even consider it
I don't know if I believe it.

You used to be so innocent
And now you ignore the cries and the stress
It's not even the worst thing you do
I can't even say
And I hope one day you get it
Thrown back in your face and it causes a mess
Then you can see how this has been for me and how I've
Not always survived
I'm not the same way and it's thanks to you.

I can't believe this is wasted
I never thought you were jaded
I'm holding on so tightly
My knuckles are so white
I'm hurt that you would even consider it
I don't know if I believe it.

What a lie.

I can't believe this is wasted
I never thought you were jaded
I'm holding on so tightly
My knuckles are so white
I'm hurt that you would even consider it
I don't know if I believe it.

I want this to end
You'll never get it
Stop lying and denying
I know what you're still hiding
And even though I still know you, there's something different too.

I Wish I Could
July 29, 2009

I watched you and I knew that somehow we were meant to be
Together, forever, it's something I can clearly see
You're on my side
All through the night
I just cannot sleep
I'm hoping you'll be okay.

I wish I could be forever with you
I wont lie to you
I wish I could be the one at the end of your story
It would be a happy day
If you could only just see me and feel it too
I wish I could forever with you.

Your eyes they tell me you somehow knew
How I feel for you and that it's true I'm not like other girls
I fell for you and I know it's true.

I wish I could be forever with you
I wont lie to you
I wish I could be the one at the end of your story
It would be a happy day
If you could only just see me and feel it too
I wish I could forever with you.

If only you'd just notice me
And see my happy look we'd be
It'd be more then just a crazy dream.

I wish I could be forever with you
I wont lie to you
I wish I could be the one at the end of your story
It would be a happy day
If you could only just see me and feel it too
I wish I could forever with you.

Every Day
July 29, 2009

I'll give you time
Maybe you'll read my mind
And see that this is how I want things to be
But maybe you'll see
That this wont end here
And I know this will continue on forever.

I would go anywhere for you
That's just one thing I'd do
To keep you in my life constantly.

'Cos I can't let you go
Even though it's coming so soon
I just want you to know
That I'll always be there for you
Music's a never ending story
I know that you'll see
And I just want to see you every day in between.

None of it's right
I only see you at night
But I still love how you look above everyone else
Now I wish we're alone
I know we could fill the room
With the songs no one ever sings.

'Cos I can't let you go
Even though it's coming so soon
I just want you to know
That I'll always be there for you
Music's a never ending story
I know that you'll see
And I just want to see you every day in between.

Don't tell me hotels are all the same
I wont believe it
I can tell
That this will never be the end.

'Cos I can't let you go
Even though it's coming so soon
I just want you to know
That I'll always be there for you
Music's a never ending story
I know that you'll see
And I just want to see you every day in between.

These Scars
August 19, 2009

I'm hoping still, I'll get to talk to you
It's been a while and that's not okay with me
I'm hoping still that we're best of friends
It all seems hazy
And you're quite lazy.

It's always raining somewhere
I'm hoping one day it's clear
I can't wait anymore
I'm not wasting these years.

This ones of you
Thinking it's okay
But I can't pretend I don't miss you anymore
This ones of you and how I wish you knew
I can't control it
Please don't waste it.

It's always raining somewhere
I'm hoping one day it's clear
I can't wait anymore
I'm not wasting these years.

I build these walls up then you tare them down
I remember when we were both so young.

I know it's not over
Please stop this nightmare.

It's always raining somewhere
I'm hoping one day it's clear
I can't wait anymore
I'm not wasting these years.

Tell Me In Dreams
August 26, 2009

Closing all the doors, I want to let go
Searching for memories, I hope that it shows
One minute passes and I don't feel anything different
I wish you'd just realize
And not shut all your doors on me.

I want to believe
That you can tell me in dreams
The harder I try
the further you are
The more I cry out
The less I feel strong.

The rainy clouds clear
And it's sunny outside
It might take a while but I'll never hide
I want to show you
How strong that I've become
From you I'll never run.

I want to believe
That you can tell me in dreams
The harder I try
the further you are
The more I cry out
The less I feel strong.

So Right
August 31, 2009

This feeling could go on forever
I just wanted you to know
I'm looking forward to the next time that I'm with you
Alright
I'm gonna take a stand
And show you what its like
Looking in through the window
I'll be here watching you forever.

Make sure that everything's right
I'll scream if you put me down
I just want to hear that sound
Let the disco ball spin all night
Make sure that everything's right
I just want to hear you say
You'll play another day
I can't believe this feels so right.

Strangers wont even care
Getting out of my way
I'm hopelessly devoted to
Always being next to you
Crazy how it's always a fun time
Let's just give this all a try
I wont leave any of this behind.

Make sure that everything's right
I'll scream if you put me down
I just want to hear that sound
Let the disco ball spin all night
Make sure that everything's right
I just want to hear you say
You'll play another day
I can't believe this feels so right.

Time is on Your Side
February 15, 2010

Everyone needs some time
To understand the truth
You can only find it
When you lose control
Living this life isn't easy
Seeing everything piece by piece.

But I thought I was doing well
Until everything went under a spell
It takes time, time is on your side
When you feel that tug in your heart
And you don't want to be apart
It takes time, time is on your side.

When I think of you
I see happiness
I see good times
I know it's going to be okay
I know it's the truth
Don't hide anything from me in the dark.

But I thought I was doing well
Until everything went under a spell
It takes time, time is on your side
When you feel that tug in your heart
And you don't want to be apart
It takes time, time is on your side.

I hear a beautiful melody
Just like the ocean breeze
I'll be strong
I'll hold on
I know I'll be okay
Please keep me strong
Please keep me calm.

But I thought I was doing well
Until everything went under a spell
It takes time, time is on your side
When you feel that tug in your heart
And you don't want to be apart
It takes time, time is on your side.

I'll never tell...

One Day
March 2, 2010

One day
I know you'll say
That it's okay
That I'm still your friend
I don't know why you don't try harder
You used to make me laugh
But now I feel I'm in a trap.

One day
You'll turn to me and say
That you need me here with you.

I don't know why I can't work this out
Why I have to live without
What's the noise that I don't hear
Hoping soon that you'll realize.

I laughed uncomfortably
I cried it could have been harder
The days all fade into one big giant mess.

One day
You'll turn to me and say
That you need me here with you.

I don't know why I can't work this out
Why I have to live without
What's the noise that I don't hear
Hoping soon that you'll realize.

You're not fooling me, there's no mystery, you've forgotten what you're hiding for .

So, I guess I finally made the decision I was thinking about for a while. I've decided to put my lyrics into a blog.

I've been writing since I think I was about 11 (and I just turned 26!!), so if I went back I'm sure I'd find some really ridiculous stuff, and I'm sure some of the stuff I write now is just as ridiculous as it was back then.

I guess this is just another way for me to express myself, and let out everything I'm feeling, feelings that are made up, situations that aren't real... I'm sure you know how it goes.

So feel free to leave me a comment and let me know what you think. Leave a detailed comment and I'll love you forever.

♥

P.s. Thanks BNL for the great title.